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I’m not one to express my feelings on a personal level, other than rants on stupid ass drivers, but this one’s been making me think. Whenever someone asks me “Are you seeing anyone?” or “Any love interests?” my answer is automatically “No.” (Although to a couple of you I’m lying. LOL.) But for some reason the question makes me think about the first time I fell in love. This story might sound dumb but for me it was the only time I ever felt this way.

I was young…okay, VERY young. Middle school to be exact, back when AOL just came out and everyone was in chat rooms like “bAy ArEa AzNs” (Yes I said it and yes I was on there.) Everyone’s screen name started with AZN and kids like me learned a little about HTML codes to customize our homepages. With just typing in  “a/s/l” it was easy to make friends online. And best believe I did! I was in 8th grade during the time and there were “regulars” in the chat rooms. A lot of us became friends and I started talking to this one boy on the phone. He was my age and went to a private school in San Francisco. The first day he called me I swear we just clicked. Time went by and before we knew it 2 hours had passed. I was sitting on my kitchen floor for 2 hours talking to this dude? He easily became my best friend and we started talking every day. We would talk about everything and anything. We finally sent each other pictures and he was cute. Not the cutest guy ever but was still cute and had a baby face. It finally hit me one night where I knew for a fact he had feelings for me and vice versa. We both knew it. Nothing had to be said. The first time he said “I love you” he was so nervous that he cried after saying it. Not balling out crying…but a few tears and sniffles, basically enough for me to notice. I know I know…kind of weird but it showed how nervous he was to say it. I didn’t have an easier time saying it back to him either. Okay, maybe it was a little easier for me to say it since he said it first…and cried. But still, I had never been so nervous, excited, and happy to say those three words.

It was definitely young love, but I’ve never had that feeling of falling in love with my best friend. There are reasons why it didn’t work out. Mainly because I never saw the guy in person and it would be hard seeing each other w/o meeting up at the mall and bopping it. We actually saw each other once during high school but we probably would’ve drifted apart too. I went through some phases during high school. Lol

I firmly believe that the person you end up with should be your best friend because in the end it’s not about looks or attractiveness but the friendship and bond you have. Like in the movie UP…I swear that movie mad me CRY.

Ok that’s all. Bye.